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I dont know where to start, I feel me agian? better idk. All I know is iv got a super hyper rush, and the most biggest erge to draw and im just so happy I'm not saying I'm not happy with Tay, I'm always very happy around him, Just I'm feeling a different happy now- my old happy, My imaginative happy. I think I was merging to much of my personality with Tay n his mates- It's weird to explain lol.
I dont know why I'm felling like this is all of a sudden, but I have my theories.

1. Starting reading again bout a week ago-haven't done this on months, and well my head started swimming with a few ideas. Iv knocked out Twilight, New Moon, the draft of Midnight sun, Into the darkness and most of the Last Dragoon.
2. Brang back the goth music today, Its mainly been metal and some everyday happy music.
3. Haven't seen Tay in like 3 days- idk if the separation had something to do with it. We normally see each other every day. I think he distracts my mind sometimes- but that's fine I'm totally cool with that. I think on a level I wanted an escape a break from drawing all the time, It got boring and repetitive and those things don't seem to make a good mix for me. I seem to go 'emo' after a few months of the same thing. I just go criticizing crazy.
4.I been looking at dA all day today, and searching stuff. Haven't touched my Facebook or worried bout job searching.
5. Watched Treasure Planet! awesome movie ^^ haven't seen it in years!
6. I have my Photoshop and Corel back, had to download em I think not having them not only limited my access to drawing some things- but also I felt there was no point to draw on paper if I couldn't clean it up or re-size it before posting it on dA
7. Its cold-ish here today. Reminds me of school and all that old stuff from last year. I miss a fair few things but I suppose I have to just get over them. While I was in school I did nothing but draw.
8. Because of all this I started drawing, I didn't need to think of pose, anatomy or anything- it all just kinda crashed and well I think Im on my roll again. And im Dam happy about it ^^


I suppose what I'm feeling is freedom a bit and a meeting with my old self. I think I'm just on the tip of the iceberg now...
Anyways guys I love ya all so take care n keep safe! Memba to show everyone what your made of

- DDW or Jazz